Cold and frosty morning there's not a lot to say
About the things caught in my mind
And as the day was dawning my plane flew away
With all the things caught in my mind

Oasis - Don't Go Away.

So since my last update it's been... god... ages. William and Nathan are 4 and 2, William is in school... things went from bad to worse to good to okay... and now i just feel... worse again. I feel awful, because i can relate to a friends problems but i feel that if i try to talk about how i feel i'm almost... copying them or... using their bravery as an excuse to.. i dunno... latch onto the understanding they are getting from others... but seeing him be so brave and coming out and /saying/ all that stuff makes me want to sort myself out more....

Anyway, so i'm... I'm RPing again (Role playing) And it's been sorta helping... I've made friends and had a laugh, but you know.. with that comes the darker evil side of people being arses. Some nights i come off happy but some nights have had me in tears... I guess it comes with the territory...

I'm not sure what this post was hoping to achieve... i'm hoping to use this blog again to express my depression, anxiety and all that shit. Both as Kattrina and as Jo. More on that later.