I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream.
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean.
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright.
So I'm breaking the habit,
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight

Breaking the Habit - Linkin Park

So i wanted to post some long winded post about why i'm so fucked up and stuff that goes on in my head and all that shit... but to be honest there really is no point. I seriously have gotten to the stage now where i just... I want to say i'm at the point where i couldn't give two shits but i'm sat here worrying about what others will think about me.. which is stupid because no one ever gives a shit about what i think...

And i know there are going to be people who say they care.. and that "How can you say that" and "That's not fair you know i ....." etc etc, but unless you know exactly how i feel you're not going to understand. You guys are great and all, but... >.< It's not... It's not a long term solution to a major problem.... It's just... you guys are just..helping... not... curing... if that makes sense...

See, this is the part where everyone thinks i'm being a complete fuck and start to hate me and bitch and moan and call me two faced and... Ugh... think what you will... I just.... What ever...