I've become so numb, I can't feel you there
Become so tired, so much more aware
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me, and be less like you
Numb - Linkin Park

Tired and in pain i sit here, thinking about what i should have done.
knowing that the pulsing in my jaw would keep me awake i stupidly took the doctors advice of a 'soft food diet' and pop the pain killers like some kind of drug addict. The days are hard, but the nights are harder as i struggle to sleep longer than 2 - 4 hour intervals, waking to throbbing and the need of paracetamol.

William has noticed a change in me. Both of us are lerthargic, quiet and starting to worry Kris. I have another trip to the hospital on Thursday, they think i grind my teeth and are supplying me a tooth guard. I shall tell them that i cannot stand the pain anymore and i need something to be done, even if that means an operation on my jaw.

If i could just close my eyes and get some sleep, then maybe it wouldn't be so bad.